Surplus, Shmerplus

So, I have  been 'surplused' at work.  It's almost like becoming 'redundant'--(inside British Office joke).  Apparently my services are no longer needed at my school.  Which is weird, because last I checked, they still couldn't read worth a damn.  But they don't need ME.  Whatever.  Bottom line, I'm going from one building to another; I just don't know where I'm going or what I'll be teaching until Thursday.  So, I'm kind of in limbo waiting to see where I'll go.  I'm doing okay with this revelation, because a) I hated, hated, hated the administration and just days before my 'surplusing' I prayed for God to help me with my anger.  Be careful what you pray for.  I'm also okay because b) this is an opportunity to see what else is out there and maybe meet some new people.  It's going to be a positive situation, I'm sure.  The downside is that I've been at my old school for 5 years, so I have an emotional investment in the people I work with and the kids.  It's going to be sad to go, for sure, but I'm going to be fine.  It's killing me to leave Bex and The Brit, but they are such good friends, that it won't matter where I'm working.  However, I have found out the people that aren't my friends.  Which is sucky.  But it's okay, because I'm not working with those jerks anymore.  Thursday is the day I find out where I'm going to be teaching---Friday, I move and Monday I start teaching.  That's a fast turn-around.  And you know what?  When I'm in charge of the world, things WILL be different.  They will.

Last Downloaded:  Three Little Birds, by the Chipmunks

Just Finished Reading--A Million Miles in a Thousand Years, by my boyfriend, Don Miller  more on that later

Song Stuck in My Head:  All The Single Ladies by Beyonce 

Jesus Fish

There's a very good reason why I don't have a Jesus fish on my car.   I love Jesus, I love the symbolism behind the Jesus fish, but I will not put one on my car.  Whilst I was driving home to Spokane, I saw some people broken down on the side of the rode. Being a single woman, I did not stop to help.  A)  It's not safe, and B) I'd probably just be in the way and not much help.  So, this brings me to the fact that if I were the one stuck on the side of the road and I saw someone with their Jesus fish on the car, I would expect them to stop and help.  Christians are supposed to stop and help.  And I would be pissed off if they did not stop.  That's why I won't put one on my car.  So I don't have to stop and help people on the side of the road.

No Panties!

So, I went to go buy some new underwear....and my brand is Victoria's Secret. I go into the store and look around and cannot find my preferred style.  So, I ask them.  "We ran out."  HAVE YOU EVER HEARD OF SUCH A THING????  They RAN OUT of panties at Victoria's Secret.  I swear I am not making this up.  The upside is that I did laundry and didn't need new undies after all. 

I will be home in 11 or 12 days.  I have already started packing and I am really looking forward to spending time with my family and my friends back home.

Song Stuck In My Head:  Tiny Dance

Last Downloaded:  The season premiere of Glee, as suggested by Don.

Currently Reading:  The Message version of the Bible, and The David Sedaris book that I was reading last time.  He's funny.

All You Need Is Love

I cannot wait to get home.  First of all, I am a true Northwest girl.  I want to go home where the grass is green and the air is clean.  And, I just want to be surrounded by people that love me.  The people that really love me, not this phony las vegas bullshit.  I want my family.  I may be a bit homesick.  Sort of.  I'm just really, really anxious to get home to be with my loved ones.  I can't remember feeling such a sense of urgency before, but I am feeling it now.

The kids at school have lost their damn minds and so has the administration.  That's another reason I need to get home.  I have to get away from this nonsense.  Common sense is sooo uncommon.  People are stupid and they get dumber everyday.

However, I am in a really good place right now.  I'm happy.  Mostly.  And it's kind of freaking me out.

Song Stuck In My Head:  Pocketfull of Sunshine

Currently Reading:  Dress Your Family in Courduroy, by David Sedaris.  HILARIOUS

Last Downloaded:  Can't remember the name of it, but it's about how God is not finished with me yet. Good song.  Reminds me of me.  Screws up all the time, but hang on, because God is not finished with me yet.  He's still working on me.  Praise!

The Latest

It has been awhile.  Not that I don't have anything to say....Let's start with Dark Kent.  Okay, we are barely speaking.  I would love to say that I'm okay with this.  I'm not.  My heart is broken.  Here's what went down.  I have tried on NUMEROUS occasions to meet up with him for lunch or whatever.  He has an excuse every time I try.  Finally, we had a showdown, because he told me he couldn't because he was going out of town.  Turns out, he wasn't going out of town until a few days later.  I called him out on his lie, which in turn ticked him off.  At any rate, we are speaking, but it's not the same.  I was thinking our friendship was one thing when clearly it was not that.  Don says that because the level of intimacy keeps changing, it keeps me off balance.  I love it when people put words to how I am feeling.  Kent and I were close.  We were GOOD friends.  The kind of friends that pick you up at the airport, come and save you when your car is broken down, loan you money...that's the kind of friends we were.  Or so I thought.  We aren't the kind of friends, evidently, that you invite to your home.  He told me over and over, 'We'll have to have you over for dinner'..Never happened.,  It's never going to happen.  He blames his wife.  She has 'a problem' with me.  Really?  She seemed to be okay with me when I loaned them money.   Whatev.  It's just sad.  But I'm coming to the realization that it's not me.  It's them.  His wife doesn't even know me.  And I have tried.  I have reached out to her over and over again.  It's fine.  It's just sad, because we aren't going to be friends and to constantly get rejected will tend to make a girl a bit angry and bitter and sad and moody and it makes you feel like a REJECT. 

I'm sad that people are constantly letting me down.  And I think that because I take things so personally like this, that life keeps handing it to me.  I'm going to try and let it go.  I am.  Because I can't keep hanging on.  I have said it before and will say it again...breaking up with friends is just as hard as breaking up with a boy.  I love Kent and I miss him, and it will be what it's going to be and if it's going to be nothing, then I guess that;s what it will be.  Life goes on.  I have other friends. 

I am so anxious to go home, you have no idea.  It's getting hot here. Angus and I are stir crazy.  I am really looking forward to him playing with his brothers all day and sleeping all night.  Only a few more days and The Hairdresser and I are driving home.  The kids at school are trying to either get me to kill them or kill myself.  Pray for me.  Pray for us all.  :)

I am really trying to be more positive and not so grouchy all the time, but it's hard when you are surrounded by assholes.  When you are surrounded by assholes, it has a tendency to turn you into one too.  Which is why I have to run home. 

Last Downloaded:  The rest of the Kelly Clarkson album

Currently Reading:  When You Are Engulfed In Flames, by David Sedaris 

Song Stuck In My Head:  I Do Not Hook Up by Kelly Clarkson